The Other Side?

So, maybe i'm on the other side of hate and anger. Maybe i'm finally making actual strides toward something positive. I feel almost caught up on homework for the first time...this semester. I'm in runs of Into the Woods, but not rehearsals! I am supposed to be working as an extra on Vampire Diaries, and some of the main cast may actually come see the show. Good thing about VD is that once you work once if you're pretty good they generally call you back. I'm already set up to work for Chris as his SM for the school edition of Rent. That should be interesting. And yes, I cheated today on Medifast, but I'll go back to being a slave to it today. I think everyone needs an off day. Also, i've lost 6 lbs! So there. Spit on that!

Anyway, it's 7 am and I have yet to go to bed working on homework etc. so I should probably do that. According to Matt I have to go get my rat tomorrow. I mean today. Then I have a show tonight. I'm not really tired. Why aren't I tired? Probably because i'm a freak of nature....

Yeah oh well, you love me anyway. Because i'm me.

Night / Morning!

Dragon*Con

Backtracking to fit in what else i've been up to: DRAGON*CON!

So, it was tiring, frustrating, but a lot of fun. My friend Jennifer Teeter was a real on the books performer for the con, which was really exciting. I manned her booth a bit and got a free Teeter button and cd out of the deal. She was amazing.

I tried to do the dress up thing: Rainbow Bright and Steam Punk Lady (such as they were). Next year I will be far more prepared and have as cool of a costume as everyone else did. My favorite I saw this year was Queen Frostine from Candy Land.

There were hundreds of panels I wanted to go to, and I didn't make it to a single one. The lines were atrocious, and I got so lost trying to figure out where I was that I missed most everything I wanted to go to. I managed to make it to the Time Traveler's Ball and both of Teeter's shows. I also made it to the AIE Guild Meetup and TwitTV meetup. I got turned on to my new favorite podcast, Ladies of Leet (which are actually my guildies!). I just wasn't prepared enough to market myself. I really needed a website and new headshots and business cards. I'm just not where I need to be physically, emotionally, or technologically for the amount of marketing I should have been doing.

So goals for next year:
have a hotel room
plan my costumes months not days or weeks in advance
have a fully functioning website, up to date headshots, business cards, and a smile on me
actually map out and follow my daily planner
order my ticket in enough time that it gets mailed and i don't have to wait in lines
be in the parade

Into the Woods

So, I really need to actually keep my blog for a change. Into the Woods opened tonight. It's been a hectic week of me doubting it would come together, but it did! I should have trusted Andy when he said it would, but I'll know better now! It's really rewarding to finally be back in a show. Yes, my part is rather small, but it's a part. It feels so wonderful to be back on stage.

I actually sat up on the ladder last night waiting on my lines for the giant and began to cry. I realized how much i'd missed the beauty of theatre. It's just a part of who I am and what I am. It's what I want to do with the rest of my life, and when I forget that, it's really hard to have a focus anymore. It's moments like last night when I watched Gretchen sing No One is Alone and silently cried when I remember why I do this.

I am so blessed to get to work with this cast. They are amazing professionals and theatre enthusiasts who all bring so much to the table. I've gotten to know so much about good performance through them. I am always amazed to learn from the experiences of others in theatre. I admire each of them more than i'll ever be able to express. I hope to work with them all in the future.

I also developed friends through this. Tina and Sue have been my lifeline. It's really hard to feel alone and ostracized so much of the time. Since moving here I haven't really found many solid connections, but I feel at home with them. I feel like I could ask anything of them and they'd gladly agree, and I would do the same in a heartbeat.

My parents and Nanan came to the opening tonight, and it wasn't a perfect show; but it was a very good show. They brought me flowers. It felt nice to finally feel like I accomplished something worth them being proud of for the first time in a long time.